I cry therefore I can’t

As I’m reading a report on volunteering a memory comes back up.

When I was little I remember seeing the ads on TV about malnourished kids and the NGO’s asking for donations. I remember feeling the hurt I would see and feeling teary.

As a teenager, I was curious about volunteering but I believed that I was not strong enough to do so as I would feel teary and most likely cry when volunteering. And therefore I was inadequate.

That belief is long gone. But it was with me for a while.

I cry therefore I not strong enough, not good enough.

I remember watching movies and hiding my tears being ashamed of them.

All that is long gone.

In 2022 when my grand father was dying, I was crying on the trains, in front of family, on the phone with friends. Surprisingly I was told that I dealt with everyone phases of greif and the updates in an incredible manor, that’s I’d been so strong through it. All that while allowing myself to cry.

As for volunteering, crying has never been a problem. I’m present, I’m supportive, I’m empathic.

What is crying?

Crying is a release function of your body’s nervous system. To cry means that you’re allowing your emotions to flow through you. That’s you’re healthy!

Studies have shown that an emotions exist for 60 to 90 seconds.

To not cry, well just imagine you needing to pee, and holding it in forever, your bladder would burst from the inside and then you’d have urine all over your inside, and that will cause further issues. Not healthy.

That what you’re doing when you hold emotions back, you’re pilling up a type of toxins within your body.

As I’m typing this sentence just came up:

I cry, therefore I can 🙂